Well Mrs Blog you made it another year 44 tomorrow I guess144 living with me. All I can say is you have a wonderful birthday I still love you so much even though you keep telling everyone the truth about me. I was going to get a bit of my own back tonight but since it’s your birthday I will save it for another day.
I'm really sorry that there's a little more of me now to cuddle but I thought I would just remind you of Mr Blog 25 years ago. Things have'nt changed a whole lot except

The other night we had the biggest fight. It was really bad and really silly; mostly to do with insecurity. Both of us were in error I suppose. Usual thing I guess. I just gets on my nerves that’s all. I was chatting with some one on blog stream, we were writing poetry actually, and Mr Blog walked in. I totally panicked and shut the window. It’s been so strained around here; I just panicked and left the chat. Why?

I lied about who it was and their gender. I can’t believe it, I actually lied! I was so afraid, but of what? It didn’t make any difference so what the hey later on that night I told him the truth. Then I posted a really sad post on my blog but I wasn’t sad, no, I was so angry! I wanted to rip the world down and scream till I died but one mustn’t do that must one? Everyone was so kind, thank you all for that. So the next day I went in to chat, Adam was there, and he was such good company. It was quiet and we each did our own thing but it was nice having some one there all the time; safe and somehow not alone or something.

I was feeling so sad and angry it was just perfect. Adam, I so appreciated it, you are a good friend.

I don’t understand what it’s all about and I don’t want to give in. I won’t be ruled with an iron fist just because of insecurities. Sometimes the kitchen gets hot and if it’s too much just get out! I like the heat, some like it hot! That’s just the way of it I suppose.

Honestly, if there is anyone out there and you’re not married and you’re thinking about getting married or looking for your perfect match stop now. Really, really think about it!!

But then again you’ll miss out on so much. There’s so much good too, so much I’ve really loved and appreciate. Mr Blog is the nicest man, and a wonderful father a great husband and amazing lover. I don’t know what it is, some how it feels like there isn’t enough oxygen around anymore; just grasping for every breath. Sorry Mr Blog, it’s not you, I think the problem is me, the problem is that you’re stuck with me and that may be sad for you. It’s the way of it I suppose…

~ ~ ~ ~ Mrs Blog

Last Sunday we went for a drive down to visit Mrs Blog’s mum for mother’s day. It was a one and a half hour drive; she didn't know we were coming. Her mum has had a stroke and she is pretty well bed bound and her dad stays by her side 24/7. To see the look on her face when her daughter turned up was priceless it's something that you really never forget. They hugged and kissed and filled the room with an amazing feel of love and affection.
I sat for a while and talked and then left to go and watch television in another room or that’s what I told them. You know mums are very special people they will love you no matter what, I had to leave because my mum has been gone for 22 years. Even though that seems a long time her presence today is as strong as it was when she was alive. There isn’t many days go by that I don’t think about her she was such a brave lady who put up with so much as she protected me with all her might. She didn’t do any one any harm and then suffered so much in her last days.
I recently read Scratch’s tribute to his mum and yeh men do cry and no,no one really knows how you feel we are different and we deal with things differently. I remember being at work on the 25/11/83 and I had this unbelievable sadness come upon me and I knew than that a part of me died because I felt mum come by and say good bye. I waited patiently knowing that some one would turn up and ask me to go home. About 15 minutes later sure enough I was told to go home there was some bad news I said I know I just felt mum die.
That’s the connection I long for again two becoming one that we feel each others hurts and joys to feel that touch even though many miles separate us. MUM I LOVE YOU SO MUCH and I miss you as much today as yesterday. To see the tears in Mrs Blogs and her mums eyes as they hugged, kissed and said good bye some how made me feel good in side knowing it was not a final good bye. Mrs Blog treasure your mum she is special as are all mums.

~~~~~~Mr Blog

Dealing with anger isn’t an easy thing to do and it can be difficult to have such strong feelings of anger towards outside circumstances and not hit out at the person closest to us.  It is really difficult when stress involves us both and trying to not react in anger just because we’re stressed or upset with other things is not an easy thing at all. When one is tired of the whole thing, it is easy to just want to drop it all and walk away – forever.

 

I don’t know about Mr Blog; how he manages this kind of stuff. He often asks me if it would be best if he just left. My only answer is that it’s his house, his car; he has worked so hard, if anything I will leave and find a way. It hasn’t happened, not yet but it has come very close.

 

It’s amazing how over 25 years of something can simply come down to that; a simple decision. The tears, arguments, misunderstandings, how we take each other for granted so often and become introspective. How easy it is to think only of the struggle we’re in now and not all of the great and amazing things in this life that we’ve shared together. Selfish! So selfish and it shames me to know that it’s something I tend to be. I haven’t needed practice or a diploma in self centeredness. It’s just one of my natural born gifts.

 

 I was looking for a photo at my dad and mum’s place the other day for the graduation extravaganza at Lucy’s blog the other week (all of ours photos are still in storage) and I came across a whole heap of pics of us and our kids. It was a lovely trip down memory lane. Wow! We were just kids ourselves when we met. We were kids having and raising kids. The odds of us ever getting this far, were and are stacked so high against us its mind boggling – but we have and some how we’re still here together.

 

Time is the true healer of all things. As the clock ticks on and the sun rises and sets, we find ourselves looking back and somehow seeing things in perspective. As we pass through this life, the things that we thought were so big and important back then become smaller and less significant now. Many of the things I would rage about then seem like nothing now. In the end, regardless of what actually does happen and where we find ourselves in the last days of our lives; it’ll be all good and what will be, will be…

Happy mothers day Mrs Blog I have just stole these lyrics from Leanne Rymes and it sum's up what I got from a beautifull woman. You have alway's showed committment in all circumstances.
You were there as a mum when there was no dad.
You were there as a mum when the boys were sick.
You were there as a wife when there was no husband.
You were there as a lover when there was not much love.
You were there when the boys needed advice.
You were there giving love when I wasn't.
You loved unconditionally.
You loved when it was needed most.
You loved when you didn't have to.
You loved me even when it seemed impossible.
BEST OF ALL YOUR STILL HERE WHEN YOU DIDN'T HAVE TO BE.
From the three of us take a bow for you are the best mum any one could possible want, thanks for the past 25 years and I can only pray for many more Mrs Blog we all LOVE you so much (even though it may not seem like it)

What I'm lookin' for
Is a love that's forever
Someone who can capture my soul in a heartbeat
And stay for all time
What I'm prayin' for
Is a match made in heaven
Someone who will worship my body
And still put his heart on the line

Commitment
Someone who'll go the distance
I need somebody with staying power
Who'll make me go weak in the knees
Commitment
And everything that goes with it
I need honor and love in my life from somebody
Who's playin' for keeps

What I'm searching for
Is a man who'll stand by me
Who will walk through the fire
And be my flame in the night
I won't settle for
Less than what I deserve
A friend and a lover who'll love me
For the rest of my life

Commitment
Someone who'll go the distance
I need somebody with staying power
and powerWho'll make me go weak in the knees
Commitment
And everything that goes with it
I need honor and love in my life from somebody
Who's playin' for keeps

Yeah I've had promises broken
Three words left unspoken
They just left me achin' for more
But I've found temptation
I won't be impatient
There's one thing that's worth waitin' for

Commitment
Someone who'll go the distance
I need somebody with staying power
who'll make me go weak in the knees

Commitment
And everything that goes with it
I need honor and love in my life from somebody
Who's playin' for keeps

Commitment
And everything that goes with it
I need honor and love in my life from somebody
Who's playin' for keeps.

~~~~~~Mr Blog